Taking evil for a friend

Ever had one of those moments when you feel like you've taken the wrong step, gone down the wrong street, or flushed your life inexplicably down the toilet?

Haish, Kak Sofie is just a little ruffled right now.. she feels like there's so much out there, but she's not getting a piece. She wants to change and move and discover new things, but her lap is heavy with commitments and responsibilities. At times she has no idea why she's accountable for certain things, but she bears them all the same. The little that she's been doing so far doesn't seem to amount to much; she wants to do more.. so much more.

But, in such cases Kak Sofie rationally swallows her own reminder..

...the worst disease to plague humans is the lack of patience. We tumble blindly and chaotically through life simply because we have no forbearance to look for clues as to how we are to live...

Then again, patience has also been defined as a minor form of despair, disguised as a virtue...

......

Kak Sofie knows it's not a good thing... and it's not like her.

But her soul is appeased... at least for the time being.