Seriously, I don't know whether to feel honored, or used..
All I know is, this is feeling a whole lot like heading the prep and tech division for that ill-concieved KOS AGD Dinner back in 2006.
History is about to repeat itself, minus the camaraderie and willing help of close friends.
SOMEBODY HELP!! (>_<)
Friday, 26 March 2010
Thursday, 25 March 2010
Falling apart at the seams..
All done! (=_=)
Serius, dah tiga minggu aku menghadap skrin komputer. Kerjanya:
1) Membetulkan lead dan reverse sequence untul 150 samples, base by base..
2) Run haplotype analysis untuk setiap spesis
3) Identify unique haplotypes untuk barcode
4) construct barcodes by hand, using Paint program
5) Report
Aku jenis yang tak senang puas hati. Sikap perfectionist aku ni kadang-kadang menjadi benda yang buat aku sangat susah nak get along dengan rakan sekerja. Orang dah penat buat report, nak hantar cepat-cepat. Aku? down to the last minute masih lagi membelek; edit content, wording, font, color, alignment, heading, captions..
Semuanya nak kena betul, tepat, cantik.
Too bad SV aku tak sabar-sabar nak tengok result. Aku tengah perah otak nak identify haplotypes, dia sibuk nak minta aku buatkan gambar-gambar barcodes untuk include dalam progress report. FYI, namanya jer DNA barcoding. It's a concept. Bukannya software aku boleh generate betul-betul barcode tu. Yang boleh di-generate ialah DNA sequence yang panjangnya beratus-ratus base pairs. Nak buat barcodes daripada sequences camtu? Nak mampus!?
Tapi tak. Dia nak jugak.
Sebenarnya aku tak payah fikir panjang. Apa saja yang dimuntahkan software Mega tu aku include je dalam report dan hantar pada SV. Dia bukan faham sangat. Kalau aku kata ada 18 haplotypes untuk 10 species, maknanya betul la ada 18 haplotypes untuk 10 spesis. Why should she doubt me? I'm the geneticist.
But like I said, aku ni jenis yang tak senang puas hati.
Aku sangat risau kalau haplotype aku tak cukup spesifik untuk barcoding. Terlampau banyak benda yang aku tak pasti. Is the sequence clean? are the primers conserved? Are they really unique haplotypes or errors made during translation? Will this be useful? Softwares can only go so far in giving you what you want. If garbage is what you feed into it, you really can't expect gold to come out..
Point is, kata-kata aku, pandangan-pandangan aku, as well as kerja-kerja aku tak seharusnya diambil bulat-bulat. I'm a novice at this. Kamu yang expert.
Tapi biasa la, dunia aku selalunya terbalik.
Haish. I want more time to work on this. Aku rasa banyak yang perlu diperbaiki. Mungkin aku tak faham semua benda, tapi aku sangat peka kalau kerja aku tak berapa mantap. Susah la kalau research aku diganggu pihak pentadbiran yang asyik nak tengok result; tak kisah la apa rupanya result tu. Yang penting projek selesai pada waktunya.
Etika kerja aku tertolak tepi demi berkompromi dengan masa.
PS: Presents to anyone who could tell me where I could get this drink in the Peninsular.. ^^
Tuesday, 9 March 2010
Refresh
It seems I'm toggling from white, to black, to white again.. ^^
Life is nothing if not for that top-of-the-world-bottom-of-the-barrel cycle, no?
"But what's new, Kak Sofie?"
Nothing.
I just fancy oblivion, which white excellently represents.
And besides,
Black just talks too much.. you know?
Life is nothing if not for that top-of-the-world-bottom-of-the-barrel cycle, no?
"But what's new, Kak Sofie?"
Nothing.
I just fancy oblivion, which white excellently represents.
And besides,
Black just talks too much.. you know?
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